Will I have this job next year or not? I can’t stand the not knowing. I’m not going to know for another six weeks or so… The problem is, I’m starting to look at this as maybe being a positive thing, and now I’m almost afraid I won’t get laid off. How’s that for idiotic? I go back and forth between feeling like leaving here would be the worst thing, and feeling like it might be the best thing. I wish they’d just tell us so that I could decide how I felt. And accept it either way. At this point, if they asked for volunteers, I might just do it so that I’d feel like I had at least a tiny bit of control over my future. And my family merely suggests that I not “dwell on it”. So, I’m venting. Sorry.
